Friday, 4 May 2018

One Year On...

The 4th May will always be a date I will remember. Not because of its Star Wars connection, but because it's the first anniversary of Zach's Cystic Fibrosis Diagnosis.

I can't believe it was a year ago today, we were sitting in a consultation room at Great Ormond Street hospital. Both my husband Jon and I were completely heartbroken, confused and a little bit in disbelief. The previous afternoon I had gotten a phone call by the lovely specialist nurse, whom we would become to know really well in months to come. Zach's heel prick test results had come through and he had suspected Cystic Fibrosis.

Everything from then on moved in slow motion, i was beside myself. I think I cried non stop for two weeks after. Angry at the world and questioning, why me? Why us? it's not fair. On top of that I couldn't help but think about my sons death, his funeral, life after Zach which caused me a lot of grief and stress. 

All of these feelings are completely normal. When we were told about Zach I remember the team telling us it will become easier and in a years time you will look back and think you're right. At the time I was thinking how can you say that? I'm going feel devisated for the rest of my life.

It's now 1 year on and I can honestly say they were right. Yes I still get a little teary every now and again but that's normal. Zach has just had his annual review and everything is perfect at the moment. He only needed stronger antibiotics three times in the past year, due to a bug growing on his lungs because he had a cold. But no hospital admintions, no crackling in his lungs and no mucus. 

We are very fortunate and extremely greatful that Zach is on the good end of the scale. Others have a much harder and difficult start to life, being in hospital for months after birth and constantly afterwards.

It has been a tough year learning about Cystic Fibrosis and giving Zach his medications twice a day and his creon micro with every meal so his body can deal with fats and proteins. 

Myself and my husband are doing our first fundraiser and fundraising for the CFtrust and trekking 65km in under 17 hours across the Peak District in July. If you would like to read more of our story and or sponsor us then you can do so here -

I have more info on Cystic Fibrosis in my post here -

If you have any questions about CF or you know someone who would benefit from this post than please share and or message me.

Jenni x


Thursday, 3 May 2018

I'm Returning

Hello my lovelys,

It has been a hot minute since I last blogged, back in July. I made the conscious decision to take a back seat with my blog and social media. 

I had just become a first time mummy to little Zach (not so little anymore), on top of that he was diagnosed with cystic fibrosis. Which knocked me for six and in return I became really poorly over the stress of it all. I needed rest and to concentrate on my health as well as Zach's. 

I knew I would come back to blogging one day. And so here I am.

What can you expect from my blog?

Everything really. I will be posting a lot about Cystic Fibrosis as it's something that is now very close to my heart and not many people know much about it. I will be documenting Zach's journey and how it effects him and us as a family.

I will be writing lifestyle and travel posts. As well as monthly favourites.

Now that Zach is one! (Wait, what?). He has shown a lot of interest in Disney. The past month I set up a Disney related insta account( disneymummy_ ). Which you can see on my blog home page. It's something that has helped me mentally cope with everything and makes me and my little boy happy.
So expect Disney related posts.

I am so happy I have found it in myself to return to something I love doing. I also hope you join me along for this bumpy ride too.

See you soon

Jenni x


Monday, 10 July 2017

June Favourites

Summer is finally here! I literally can't believe how fast this year is going, I want it to slow down, just a little. So, now it's July and in May I brought a lot of products, just because I went through a frumpy mummy 'phase'. 

Here's what I was loving in June and still am...

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LOreal Pure Clay Detox mask
Oh. My. Goodness! I have never loved a clay mask like this before. Seriously, the best thing I have treated my face to since college and back then I got to play around with alot of Dermalogica products. 

This Mask is enriched with black charcoal which acts like a magnet to draw out impurities. Which it totally did, the day after I first used it, I had a few spots come up and then go after a few days. The texture is so creamy and smooth, it just glides onto the face. 

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You don't need to use alot of product either. I can see a huge difference with my skin, it's alot brighter and smoother, my pores arn't huge anymore and my makeup sits alot better on my face. I would recommend you try it! 

Liz Earl Cleanse & Polish, Hot Cloth Cleanser
Okay, I'm a little late on the boat for this one. I got gifted this by my parents after I gave birth back in April. So, I've had a good couple of months using this. And I have to say I love it. I was a little sckeptical at first, how can so many people love one product. I can see why now. My oily skin has calmed right down, usually round about now I would be extremely oily and I would be forever, blotting my face. Well, not any more! My skin feels and looks alot clearer and fresher.

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Liz Earl Instant Boost Skin Tonic
This goes hand in hand with the hot cloth cleanser. I use this daily and when I'm having no makeup days, it's nice to use during the day when I have a free miniute or two just to freshen up. Keeps the oil at bay. 


I had no idea that this book was being made into a series! I absolutely loved the book and equally I Loved the series. Britt Robertson has done an extremely good portrayel of Sophia Amoruso, from the book. It's how I imagined Sophia to be like. This defitenly kicks ass and is totally girl boss worthy. Though, I recoomened reading the book first.

The Vampire Diaries
 I forgot how good this was. Unfortunatly I stopped watching a couple of years ago and I forgot what season and episode I was at. Thank goodness it's all on Netflix.

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I have been loving this backpack I purchased from Primark. I needed a bag for my purse and little bits, instead of shoving it all in the changing bag and rummaging around for it for ages. I also wanted it to be pratical yet cute and stylish. I couldn't contain my excitment when I came across this rucksack. It feels and looks more than the £10 I paid for it. It's a mixture of faux leather and silk with beauitfully 'embroided' flowers. It has not one, but TWO front pockets which are handy for my phone and Zach's Creon and spoon holder. Inside you have your main bit and then a zipped pocket on one side and two smaller pockets on the other. You can also adjust the straps really easily. What more could you ask for? It's perfet for summer and it goes with any outfit I put on. Ive had so many compliments while out and about. So, well done Primark you made one Mumma happy. 

That's it for this month. Thank you for reading and I will catch up with you next time.

Love Jenni x


Friday, 23 June 2017

Summer Bucket List

I have never done a bucket list. There I've said it. I don't know why I haven't done one before, but I keep seeing people write one and they look so interesting. I always thought it had to be things you wanted to do in your life time. Not necessarily, I've seen bucket lists on all topics from day to day, weeks, months, years and even seasons.

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So without further a do here is my Summer Bucket List...

Have An Epic BBQ

I have already started plans on this! It's on the 2nd July two days from my two - year wedding anniversary, so it's kind of like a mini party to bring everyone back together again. Especially now, that most of us now have babies.

I just need food ideas!

Get Fit

I just recently (10weeks ago) had a baby and I really want to get back in shape. Mainly so I can wear my summer clothes from last year and run around after my baby once he is walking and causing mischief. So far I have made it back to pre-pregnancy weight! Whoop whoop.

Strawberry Picking

This is an old favourite. I love Strawberries and picking and eating them is an experience and memory maker. I adored this activity during childhood. I haven't done this since and because I have been working all summer for the past 10 years, I never got the chance or time. Now that I'm on Maternity Leave, I will have the time to go! So excited.

Travel To Different Places

I love exploring and so going to places, especially towns and cities I've never been to, is definitely on my list. As I mentioned above, I now have the time for my little family to go and create memories.

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Become A Professional Blogger

I'm so excited to crack on with my blog. I have been blogging for over ten years, all on different platforms. I never knew you could make an income from it. Especially now I'm a new mum, I don't want to go back to work and pay the horrendously expensive childcare fees and gain nothing from it. Also my Son will need extra care as he has Cystic Fibrosis. I know it will take a lot longer to achieve than the summer. But if I start now then I will be a lot closer to ahieving my goal.

Go To The Beach

The last time I was on the beach was two years ago. In Portugal. For my honeymoon. I need to go back to the beach on a sunny and warm day with nice sand and a picnic with my family.

Now I Just need to plan these into my diary and tell my husband to book time off.

Love Jenni x


Wednesday, 31 May 2017

I have something to tell you....

Hey guys, Today I want to share something with you all that is very close to my heart (No pun intended). This is a very different post to what I normally upload. 

As you may or may not know, May is Cystic Fibrosis awareness month and I have been raising as much awareness as I can about Cystic Fibrosis.

Why am I doing this?

I just want to make it clear that I have never met or know anyone with this illness before. It doesn't run in mine or my husbands family. I don't have CF and neither does my husband... but we are BOTH carriers. 

We both had no idea we are carriers. 

Not until our son Zach was born 9th April 2017 and even then he was diagnosed with CF at 24 days old on May 4th 2017.

It was a BIG shock for us when we were told by Great Ormond Street Hospital about Zachs illness. They received his bloods from the heel prick test given 5 days after birth.

I had no idea what CF was all about. All I knew was that it was a very bad illness from back in the day. However, medicine has moved on ALOT and so has research. So, my son has the very best chance of having a very long and active life.

Unfortunately this can happen to anyone and I just want to make people aware, as I wasn't. It also makes me feel like I'm helping making people aware that CF is not all doom and gloom. 


What Is Cystic Fibrosis (CF)?
CF is a genetic condition affecting more than 10,800 people in the UK. You are born with cystic fibrosis and cannot catch it later in life, but one in 25 of us carries the faulty gene that causes it, usually without even knowing. 

The gene affected by CF controls the movement of salt and water in and out of cells. People with cystic fibrosis experience a build-up of thick sticky mucus in the lungs, digestive system and other organs, causing a wide ra
nge of challenging symptoms affecting the entire body

How do you inherit CF?
To have CF,  you need to have inherited two faulty copies of the gene (one from each parent), and as there are many different gene mutations that cause cystic fibrosis, each person with the condition can have very different symptoms depending on the two genes they carry. 

While people with CF often look healthy on the outside, each individual is battling their own range of symptoms on a daily basis.

How does CF affect the lungs?
The build-up of mucus in the lungs causes chronic infections, meaning that people with cystic fibrosis struggle with reduced lung function and have to spend hours doing physiotherapy and taking nebulised treatments each day. Exacerbations (a sudden worsening of health, often owing to infection) can lead to frequent hospitalisation for weeks at a time, interfering with work and home life. 

How Does CF Affect The Digestive System?
As the pancreas becomes blocked with mucus, enzymes required for digesting food cannot reach the stomach. People with cystic fibrosis often need to take more than 50 tablets a day to help digest food and keep respiratory 
symptoms in check. 

Cystic Fibrosis not only affect the lungs and digestive system but also other parts of the body. Some people with CF also struggle mentally with Anxiety, depression etc.

Currently there is no cure for Cystic Fibrosis. But research and medicine is advancing all the time, which in turn helps people with CF live normal lives and increases life expectancy. 

My life changed when Zach was born but now, my life means so much more. I get to love my son a whole lot more than normal, as well as supporting him and encouraging him to do better throughout his life. As well as caring for him when times are hard or bad.

Luckily for us we have a great CF team at Great Ormond Street Hospital to help us, help Zach and when he's old enough to take care of himself they will be there to help 

If you would like to raise awareness of CF then please share this post. 


If you would to support and donate so we can turn CF into Cure Found then you can do so by heading over to the Cystic Fibrosis Foundation which I will link at the bottom of this post.

Thank you so much for reading. If anyone has any questions
 regarding CF then please don't hesitate to tweet, email or pop it in the comments below.

Text was taken from the Cystic Fibrosis website -

Cystic Fibrosis Foundation -

Cystic Fibrosis Trust -

Jenni x




Tuesday, 16 May 2017

My Labour Story

I often wondered throughout my pregnancy whether my baby would come early or late. A lot of people told me it will be late, as all first borns are. Well, I must be special as I was born 9 days early and I'm a first born. I hoped and prayed they would come on time or soon after the due date.
Well, my due date, 28th March came and went with no sign of baby whatsoever.

A week later, 4th April I had a midwife appointment, and she told me that if I don't go into labour by the end of the week, I was to be induced on Monday morning, 10th April. I felt disappointed in myself if it came to that, as I was really hoping for labour to start naturally. However, at the same time I want my baby to be safe. This only made me feel more determined to get this baby moving and I tried every 'old wives tale'  in the book.
Nothing happened, not even a twinge. So Friday came and I thought, oh well I will have to be induced then. Knowing my luck. My husband and I went out for a last 'just us' meal and discussed what's going to happen on Monday morning at the induction. For the rest of the evening I didn't think much of it and decided to just enjoy the last weekend as parents to be.

1:30am - Saturday 8th April
I woke up with slight twinges in my stomach. It didn't hurt but felt uncomfortable enough to not go back to sleep. I thought this must be it and headed on down to the lounge to bounce on my gym ball, I didn't want the contractions to fade away. An hour later my hubby Jon came down and sat with me, but eventually fell asleep on the couch.
I watched the sunrise as contractions became a little bit stronger.

I was in the garden as it was already warm. I thought it must be me as I became sweaty inside the house, though it turned into the hottest weekend of the year. I breathed through each contraction, which came every fifteen to twenty minutes. I bet the neighbours thought I was crazy as I was kneeling over the wall of our raised flower bed doing my breathing techniques and bracing myself with each contraction.

I stayed outside most of the morning and the contractions stayed the same. But I was wanting to know how far gone I was, So Jon rang the delivery ward and they said to pop in for an examination. By this point, when a contraction came it hurt to sit and lay down. The need to stand was adamant so I had to brace myself as Jon drove us the short distance to the hospital.

I didn't have to wait long before I got to see an on duty midwife. Which was great as it was 20 degrees outside and not much cooler inside. The midwife explained what she was going to do. Basically monitor babies heartbeat, check my pulse and then examine me to see how far dilated I was. Unfortunately I was only 2cm dilated. Luckily I got to go home as I requested to be at home as much as possible in my birth plan. The midwife told me to have hot baths as this will help with the pain and to go up and down the stairs sideways. At this point I wished it wasn't so damn hot. But the bath sounded soothing and as soon as I got home I got ran a bath and stayed there for two hours.

Contractions werestarting to become quite painful now and so intense that I could not bare to eat or drink. However, Jon managed to encouraged me to drink water. Right now, I was on all fours in the lounge and hugging my gym ball because it was so comfy and helped a tiny bit to ease the pain. I also found pushing against the wall in an almost standing push up helped as well.

At this point my two other pain relieving methods were starting not to work. The congratulations we're starting to become regular but not enough to warrant going into the hospital. I managed to sit on the edge of the

sofa, ready to jump up and brace myself against the wall when a contraction came. It was now that I felt a massive pop and the feeling of pressure being released. My plug had finally come away, which was good as it indicated things were starting to move along.

I headed up for another bath and Jon helped pour hot water over my bump as I felt it eased the pain. My contractions were so painful I was now groaning. I stayed in the bath until 1:00am Jon rang the hospital again as I was in absolute agony and they could hear how much pain I was in from the phone.

1:30am - Sunday 9th April
Exactly 12 hours since my last examination. I w
as once again strapped up to a heart rate machine, checking babies heartbeat and my contractions. I was examined and was only 1cm dilated. I felt a little disappointed considering how much

pain I was in, I thought I would be further along. So the midwife sent us home after I took some pain relief. I was told to try and rest and to come back at 6:30am if pain continues and nothing has happened.
Believe it or not I actually got a few hours sleep.

I shot out of bed as a huge contractions woke me up. I never felt pain like it, I couldn't lay down or sit. So I paced around my unborn babies nursery and the bathroom. It wasn't long before I was crying like a child from the pain and so loudly that I woke Jon who rang the hospital and they told us to come in. By this time it was 6:15am I was glad.

I cried the 3 miles to hospital. I was hoping I got to stay in and have stronger pain relief and not get sent home with some codine. As soon as I got to hospital I was examined and finally I reached 5cm dilated. I was a bit down hearted by this but I was also happy as now I was allowed to stay and head into our labour suite.


I asked for a birth pool before I came in and luckily there was one free. Though I didn't get into it until 9am. I was greeted by a midwife who will be looking after me and the baby. Her name is Sonia and she was the nicest person I had ever met and She made me feel comfortable.

 Sonia started running the birthing pool, making sure it was warm and she hooked me up to gas and air as soon as I entered the pool. I was so happy and suddenly felt normal as the pain relief kicked in. Sonia checked babies heartbeat who was still happy in there.

I was in the pool for a fair while until my waters suddenly broke, it was such a strange sensation like a huge bubble bursting down there.
Unfortunately my waters had meconium in the water (baby poop) and I had to get out and my wish of having a water birth came to an abrupt end. I didn't mind, all I wanted was a safe labour for myself and baby. Sonia made me comfy in bed and I was hooked up to a heartbeat monitor and gas and air.
I was also really dehydrated from not drinking or eating properly since Friday night and the gas and air wasn't helping so I had to be put on a drip and have fluids pumped into me.

Nothing much was really happening at this point, apart from becoming really relaxed from the gas and air. I was examined again for any signs of progress. I was 6cm dilated. Sonia wasn't pleased by the amount of time which had passed and I only dilated 1cm so she explained what was to happen now. Basically, I had to have a oxytocin put in drip which helps speeds up dilation and softens the cervix. The only draw back was the contractions will be stronger and wow, she wasn't wrong.

The pain was immense! So much so, I felt like the gas and air weren't doing much. Jon couldn't bare seeing me in so much pain and ran the idea of maybe having an epidural. I totally forgot about this option. Jon was really encouraging and told me I was still a good mum even if I did have it and to not feel guilty. Which I didn't and as soon as he stopped talking, I agreed and told the midwife who said it was a good idea and in less than half an hour I was given an epidural. No regrets here.

The pain dulled immediately for a while and I was able to rest and recuperate. The midwife said I will be examined again at three thirty to see if the hormone IV was working and she will be back as it was her lunch time.

The pain had eased right down but was now replaced by an uncomfortable pressure in my bum. So much pressure that I told another midwife who was looking after me that I needed the loo. She said I didn't because it was the
baby who was creating the pressure down there. This was a good thing as it showed the baby making a move.

I was finally examined for the last time unbeknown to me. But it wasn't great. I was now only 7cm dilated. The hormone IV wasn't doing much to help me dilate quicker. My midwife was also concerned for the baby as she thought she could feel swelling of it's head so she went to get another midwifes opinion.

I had a few midwives in my room by this point who suggested a possible c section. The surgeon in
charge came in then, I had met her the day before. She examined me again and said it would be safer for the baby if we had a c section as it was getting stressed because they were stuck in my pelvis because it's small. By this point I just wanted my baby out and I really didn't care how it came out. I agreed and I signed a consent form and in minutes I was being wheeled into theatre.

I was pretty much on the operating table ready and waiting. The anesthetiser made sure I could feel nothing from the waist down and once he was happy I couldn't feel a thing then the operation went ahead. I remember feeling nervous that I was soon to meet my baby and thinking, wow apart from the anesthetiser everyone was female. Which was great. Anyway, I couldn't feel a thing not even tugging. However, they were really rough as the baby had also gotten their shoulder stuck in my pelvis as well.

I heard our baby cry and I immediately relaxed. Jon quickly asked if I had any idea of the gender before we were told. I quickly said boy just as they showed the baby to Jon.
I was right, Jon told me before he went to cut the umbilical cord. At this moment I felt a ton of emotion run through me all at once. I felt relieved he was here and safe. I could hear him crying as they cleaned and weighed him. I couldn't wait to hold him.


Zachary was born on the 9th April and weighed 9Ibs 4oz I couldn't believe he was here and I still can't. It wasn't the perfect labour to go with the textbook pregnancy. But I think I would do it again, now that I've forgotten the pain.


Wednesday, 5 April 2017

Garnier Skin Active Micellar Cleansing Gel Wash - Review

Hey guys, this month I haven't got a monthly faves post for you as I haven't really brought much. However, I do have a review! 

I purchased Garnier Skin Active Micellar Cleansing Gel after seeing a ton ads for it on Youtube. 

I love Garnier Skin Active Micellar Cleansing Water and have used nothing else to remove my makeup with for almost two years! It easily and quickly removes my makeup, even waterproof mascara instantly. So, upon finding out they were releasing a cleansing gel, I immediately ran (well, almost) to boots who had it on offer at £2.66 (rrp £3.99) Bargain!!

The packaging is similar to the micellar water bottle but not as wide in depth. The design is simple and clear and can easily be stored away in a cupboard or draw without taking up too much room.

The 'How to use' instructions on the back are easy to follow. I decided to use two pumps of the gel to determine how much product I would need to use to take my makeup off with. The gels consistency is perfect, not thick and not thin and foams up super quick. I applied to a wet face and began to massage in gentle circular motions around my face before going ahead and putting it on my eyes. I used a waterproof mascara to see how easily the micellar gel can get rid of it.

I know this may sound mad. But, whilst using the product I felt my skin being deeply cleansed. It felt refreshing and more so than using the micellar water. Once I was satisfied that the makeup had been lifted, I went ahead and rinsed my face. 

I was expecting to cleanse once more. However, when drying my face with a white towel no makeup transferred. I looked in the mirror and the makeup had gone! No panda eyes in sight, no smudges or residue. Plus, my skin felt soft and looked refreshed. 

I have been using the micellar gel for a month now and I have literally cracked open a new bottle today. I am so impressed with this product. My face hasn't dried out or looked dull. You only need one or two pumps of product to remove the makeup. Which helps my purse strings. I haven't looked back since using this product and I would highly recommend you try it, if you haven't already. I wouldn't be without it.

Thanks for reading. Have you tried the cleansing gel wash?

Love Jenni x 

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